Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Why Last Night Was a Bad Night For Me

No reason in particular. It's not like anything really bad happened.

Some days are just harder for me than others.

Chemo day. Jake was already accessed so we didn't have to do that. His blood counts are okay but not great, everything was low. Dr. Afify doesn't like the hoarseness in his voice. She called the radiation oncologist to check if they're radiating the vocal cord area. They are, so it's likely just an effect of the radiation. But Vincristine, the drug he gets every week, could be causing muscle weakness in his vocal cords. We just wait and see.

Radiation went fine until halfway through when the machine quit. Jacob did not want to wait around an hour to have it fixed, so now we can't count yesterday.

Chris is out of town for the week.

I've had an ebbing and flowing migraine for six days.

I keep gaining weight no matter what I eat or don't eat.

I was irritated with everything and everyone last night.

Jacob went to sleep at 7:00, which always worries me.

I had flashing lights in my bedroom window until after midnight as the public works' crews pumped water off Redwood Road.

1 comment:

organicnicole said...

Hello, I am a friend of Brooklyn, and a cancer survivor at age 33 with two young children.
I certainly understand why one day can be very bad, it is almost like the reality of it all hits all at once, then yes, then next day the sun is shining.
Hang in there, I am one of the strangers that is cheering for you that you didn't know.